I started my midwifery studies and as I read through the materials and realize over and over how naive I was I begin to question my abilities. I begin to question myself as a mother. I begin to question my births... particularily my last birth. I begin to wonder if I'm only being a hypocrite now by advocating for homebirths when all my births were medical.
I love what I'm learning. I'm itching to get to a birth and experience these things that I'm studying first hand. None of it feels overwhelming and burdensome. I think I'm doing what I'm meant to do... but I'm doubting myself at the same time.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Things coming to the surface
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Saturday, September 12, 2009
My Head is Swimming...
With anatomy terms and thoughts on the whole birthing process. It truly is an amazing physiological process. It's a wonder that people who know exactly how birth works physically for both the baby & the mother together still believe in evolution....
Anyway... I bit the bullet and started studying!! Here's the plan as it stands now:
Sept 09 ~ Started the book learning and portfolio building through Midwife To Be course.
Winter 09/10 ~ Started labs w/ local midwife
Fall 10 ~ Fly to NM and take midwifery assistant course through Mercy in Action
Winter 10/11 ~ Work under midewife as assistant
Summer/Fall 11 ~ Fly to Phillipines for 3+ weeks with Mercy in Action
Fall 12 ~ Have portfolio finished, clinicals finished, births completed & take the NARM.
I'm not sure if it's completely attainable with 5 children... but by Fall 2012 my youngest will be 4 & my oldest 11. I *MAY* try to go to the phillipines in Fall '12 and take the NARM in fall '13 instead if that's what it will take... but I don't want it to take me more than 4 years. Hopefully it won't..
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Monday, September 7, 2009
Book Study
I found an online course called midwife to be. So I joined the yahoogroup that is associated with it & we've started a book study. Our first book is Ina May Gaskin's "Spiritual Midwifery". An interesting read to say the least. I have read it before, but am reading it with a fresh (i.e. not pregnant) mind. I am enjoying most of it, tho my Christian side cringes with all the "telepathic", "psychedlic", new-agey chat in there.
I will come back later and discuss some of my thoughts on this book.
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Labels: book study, Ina May Gaskin, Spiritual Midwifery
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Beautiful HBA2C
I just watched a beautiful HBA2C video. It brought me to tears for many different reasons.
http://vimeo.com/5648654
Monday, July 20, 2009
Becca's Frustration
I guess I need to accept the fact that you cannot change the minds of people who are determined that drugs are the best possible way to manage labor and delivery. I find this frustrating, especially when it comes to close friends. I feel as tho they are misinformed or uninformed and it makes me want to shake them and tell them that it is NOT the best possible birth for them or their baby.
But what can I say? All I can do is provide them with information and encouragment and they have to come to their own conclusions....
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Labels: drugs, frustration, labor management
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Becca's Ramblings About Career
I'm currently reading Diary of a Midwife. It's written by Juliana van Olphen-Fehr. I'm enjoying her philosophy and her candid way of writing. The book has really made me think about what seems normal in births these days vs. what is really best for the baby and the mother.
I've put my desired career on the back burner for now because I am staying home w/ the children and homeschooling them. IN Juliana's book she says she wants to encourage women that they can have a family & do their career. I'll have to go back and find the exact quote, but she stated that it's always sad to see a woman sacrifice her family for her career or a woman sacrifice her career for her family... she says there can be a balance.
That really got me thinking about my desired career... my life. I definitely sacrifice MY desires for my family, but I do think that is best for now. I plan to take baby steps to further my education so when the time comes I can go into midwifery school and career full on.
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Labels: Becca, Career, Diary of a Midwife
Friday, July 17, 2009
Introduction #2
I've been invited to join in on this blog by my friend because she knows how much I enjoy discussing the topic of birth. I am a mom 0f 3 and I stay at home to care for my children and home. We're also starting our adventure in homeschooling this year. Birth has always been a passion of mine and I hope to one day have a career as either a midwife or a midwife's assistant.
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